Chapter 132: I'm going to stay with you
Seraphina's words hit me like a jolt of electricity, cutting through the fog of confusion and fear that had clouded my mind for what felt like an eternity. "Then don't," she said, her voice steady, her eyes burning with a fierce intensity that left no room for doubt.
"Don't run. Don't pretend. Face it, Elara. Face who you were, and then decide who you want to be."
The weight of her words settled over me like a blanket, heavy but comforting, grounding me in the moment. I felt like I was on the edge of a precipice, teetering between the person I had been and the person I wanted to become.
But Seraphina's presence, her unwavering belief in me, kept me from falling.
Before I could respond, Seraphina stepped forward, wrapping her arms around me in a warm, protective embrace. I froze for a moment, caught off guard by the sudden contact, but then I melted into her arms, burying my face in her shoulder.
The tension that had been coiled tight in my chest began to unwind, and for the first time in what felt like forever, I allowed myself to relax, to let go of the fear and doubt, if only for a moment.
Her hand came up to gently stroke my hair, and I felt a lump rise in my throat. How could someone as strong and fierce as Seraphina be so gentle?
I had seen her in battle, witnessed her power and strength, but here, in this quiet moment, she was soft, tender, and it was almost more than I could bear.
"You don't have to do this alone," Seraphina whispered, her breath warm against my ear. "Whatever happens, whatever you decide, I'm here. I won't let you face this by yourself."
The sincerity in her voice brought tears to my eyes, and I clung to her even tighter, as if letting go would mean losing this fragile sense of peace I had found in her arms. I didn't deserve her kindness, her support, but she gave it freely, without hesitation, and I knew I couldn't take it for granted.
"I'm scared," I admitted, my voice muffled against her shoulder. "I'm scared of what I'll find if I dig too deep. What if I'm still that person? What if I can't change?"
Seraphina pulled back slightly, just enough to tilt my chin up so I could meet her gaze. Her eyes, usually so fierce and determined, were soft now, full of understanding and compassion. "You're not that person anymore, Elara," she said firmly.
"You've already changed. The fact that you're even asking these questions, that you're scared of becoming that person again, shows how much you've grown."
I wanted to believe her. I wanted to believe that I was capable of change, that I could leave the darkness of my past behind and forge a new path. But the fear was still there, gnawing at the edges of my resolve.
Seraphina seemed to sense my hesitation because she leaned in closer, pressing her forehead against mine. "You're stronger than you think," she whispered, her voice a soothing balm to my frayed nerves. "And no matter what, I'll be with you every step of the way. You don't have to be afraid anymore."
The warmth of her words, the closeness of her body, it all combined to create a cocoon of safety around me, and I found myself nodding, though I wasn't entirely sure if I believed her. But I wanted to. I wanted to be strong, to face whatever lay ahead with courage, and with Seraphina by my side, I felt like maybe, just maybe, I could.
"Thank you," I whispered, my voice barely audible, but I knew she heard me. She always did.
Seraphina smiled, a soft, tender smile that made my heart ache with something I couldn't quite name. She pulled me close again, holding me tight, and I let myself sink into her embrace, letting go of the fear, the doubt, if only for a little while.
After a few moments, she pulled back, her hands still resting on my shoulders as she studied my face. "Let's get you out of here," she said softly. "You need rest, and we both need some time to think."
I nodded, feeling a sense of relief wash over me at the thought of leaving this place behind. The weight of everything that had happened, the memories that had resurfaced, was too much to bear all at once. I needed time, space, to process it all, and I couldn't do that here.
Seraphina didn't let go of me as she led me out of the tavern, her arm wrapped protectively around my waist. The night air was cool against my skin, a stark contrast to the warmth of Seraphina's body pressed against mine.
I leaned into her, grateful for her support, and together, we walked through the quiet, deserted streets of the village.
As we walked, the tension that had gripped my body began to ease, replaced by a strange sense of calm. I wasn't sure where we were going, but I trusted Seraphina to lead the way. She had always been my guide, my anchor in the storm, and now, more than ever, I needed her.
We didn't speak as we walked, the silence between us comfortable, almost soothing. I let my mind drift, focusing on the steady rhythm of our footsteps, the warmth of Seraphina's arm around me.
The chaos of the past few hours, the fear and confusion, faded into the background, leaving only a sense of peace, of safety.
After what felt like an eternity, we arrived at a small, unassuming building at the edge of the village. It was a modest inn, the kind of place where travelers stopped for a night of rest before continuing on their journey.
Seraphina guided me inside, and the innkeeper, a plump, middle-aged woman with kind eyes, greeted us with a warm smile.
"One room, please," Seraphina said, her voice calm and steady. The innkeeper nodded, handing her a key without question, and Seraphina led me up a narrow staircase to the second floor.
The room she led me to was small but cozy, with a large bed covered in soft, worn linens and a small window that overlooked the quiet street below. Seraphina set the key on the small wooden table by the door and turned to me, her expression softening as she took in my weary state.
"You need to rest," she said, her voice gentle but firm. "You've been through a lot today."
I nodded, too tired to argue, and Seraphina walked over to the bed, pulling back the covers and motioning for me to lie down.
I hesitated for a moment, not wanting to let go of the comfort of her presence, but eventually, I sank down onto the bed, the soft mattress cradling my exhausted body.
Seraphina sat down beside me, her hand resting lightly on my arm. "I'm going to stay with you," she said, her voice barely above a whisper. "You're safe here, Elara. No one will hurt you."
The words were meant to comfort me, and they did, but they also stirred something deep inside me, a longing I hadn't realized was there. I turned my head to look at Seraphina, and the intensity in her gaze sent a shiver down my spine.
Without thinking, I reached up, my fingers brushing against her cheek. She leaned into the touch, her eyes fluttering closed for a moment before she opened them again, her gaze locking onto mine.
"Seraphina…" I started, but the words caught in my throat, and I wasn't sure what I was going to say. All I knew was that I needed her, more than I had ever needed anyone.
She seemed to understand, because she leaned in closer, her breath warm against my lips. "I'm here," she whispered, and then she closed the distance between us, her lips capturing mine in a soft, tender kiss.
The kiss was gentle at first, almost hesitant, but it quickly deepened, the heat between us building as Seraphina's hand slid up to cup the back of my neck, pulling me closer. I melted into the kiss, all the fear and doubt and confusion melting away in the warmth of her embrace.
She kissed me like she was trying to erase all the pain, all the darkness, and I clung to her, desperate to lose myself in her touch.
My hands found their way to her waist, pulling her closer, and she responded by deepening the kiss, her tongue brushing against mine in a way that made my heart race.
When we finally broke apart, we were both breathing heavily, our foreheads resting against each other as we tried to catch our breath.
The air between us was charged with tension, and I knew that if we didn't stop now, things would go further, but I didn't want to stop. I wanted to lose myself in her, to forget everything else and just be with her.
"Elara…" Seraphina's voice was husky, full of desire, and it sent a thrill through me. "Are you sure…?"
I nodded, unable to find the words to express what I was feeling. I needed her, needed this, and I could see the same need reflected in her eyes.
That was all the encouragement she needed. Seraphina leaned in again, capturing my lips in another searing kiss, and this time, there was no hesitation.
Her hands roamed over my body, and I responded in kind, our movements becoming more urgent, more desperate as we lost ourselves in each other.
The rest of the world faded away, and all that mattered was Seraphina her touch, her kiss, the way she made me feel alive, like I was worth saving.